AK + Esther

Listening to the rain all alone

2009-08-27T03:12:00.002+08:00

It's raining right now over here and how I wish you were here with me just lying in bed holding each other and listening to the rain. Knowing you though, you'd probably fall asleep after like 10 seconds of lying down. So romantic of you. =/

Moments like these when I'm alone and feeling rather melancholic, I can't help but keep thinking to myself how insanely much I love you and need you. I wish you knew. It's so intense that I'd seriously contemplate suicide if anything untoward should occur upon you!

The roses are looking quite fine and dandy up there. :D I put the picture as my facebook display picture! :D Your facebook display picture is still the same SXSW poster. :( No signs of me at all. Sob sob. :( I wonder why.

Sigh I really can't sleep when you're not around. Been playing Sims and sad to say, everybody our age died except me. I'm the last one standing. Hur hur hur... HipHop married her boyfriend Philip and he and his brother moved into the house. Haha I narrate it as if it's a real life occurrence. Gosh I really need a life.

I love you so much,
Friday.

Early Morning Note.

2009-07-29T04:55:00.002+08:00

It's not yet 5:00am and I;m awake. Thanks for trying to wake me up the whole night.

Got up at 4:00 which gives me enough time to work, but the stupid thing is I've spent the past hour just trying to log on to my work system w/o any success. This of course sucks.

So now I'm grappling with whether I should just go into the office super early.

Anyway I came here to write to you about why I love you baby. I know that I have been stressed out by/with work and that this makes me tired out, grumpy, hard to deal with etc, but I hope that you remember why I love you still. I do.

I love you because:

- The moment I saw you I knew I wanted to be with you. I still look lovingly at your form with you sleep and know that I want to discover things with you. New things, new places, new experiences. I am a cynical and old poo, but the world still have much surprises for us.

- You will support me in what I do: be it my music, my work or other pursuits, I know you will be there for me.

-You have trusted me to be a part of your life, and that you have come to live together and slowly build up a home (a good one that's totally ours in the future!) with me. I love that!

-I look at you and just want to bite you all over.

There are many more, but these are the ones I can come up with these few minutes early morning. I'll continue to share more with you over time, just as how I'd want you to share your reasons with me.

I love you lah you silly Ponyo poo!

xoxoxo

Thursday.

Gosh

2009-07-22T22:54:00.002+08:00

We haven't been updating this blog in such a long long time!!! Nevertheless, it is a sweet surprise to see that you have posted some entries quite a coupla times! Whereas I didn't. :( My bad. I thought the blog died.

Waiting for you to come home from jamming is seriously making me pine for you a ridiculously great deal. I think I really miss your touch and your hugs. I really miss those days when we had whole weekends free and we didn't do anything else but cuddle.

Currently it seems like this simple luxury is no more. And each of us has to quickly get up and move along with the day. Sigh how I really really miss those days when you were in TIF and I was a useless minion in YP. Well of course I don't miss my time in YP. I just miss the amount of free time I had to spend with you!!

Lots of Love,
Friday

Sweat!

2009-06-24T02:39:00.000+08:00

Packing is hard work! I dread the unpacking too. :( Anyway just wanted to tell you that I love looking at you sleep. CUTEY POO!

Truth.

2009-06-18T12:14:00.005+08:00

The moment I saw you, you intrigued me enough to want to find out more and be with you.

Now that I have spent time with you, I love you more and more, and want to have life's adventures with you.

Times will be tough, and there will moments of despair I am sure, but that feeling of loving you will never go away.

I hope you will always remember that in your heart.

YOU ARE MINE!

Where Have You Been Hiding? Under Your Hood, Little Red Riding?

2009-06-16T19:51:00.004+08:00

Hallo!

Haha, it has been ages since we wrote here. Not sure why we went into hiding, but it's time to get back and keep in touch virtually!

Just want to say 'I love you' and can't wait to see you later again!

Till the next one, which I hope will be sooner than later!

In the meantime, check out this pic of you hiding under your hood!

Muacks,

xoxo.

Turning 21 With You Who is 32 This Year

2009-04-17T17:44:00.003+08:00

You're the bestest bestest present I have. I will learn to treasure you as best as I can. Thank you for being in my life as I go through important moments. Thank you for being one of those that give me the most important moments. Those moments were more than worth waiting for. I love you.

Friday.

My 7 Things

2009-04-16T11:11:00.003+08:00

7. You are super romantic and things you do make me melt. :)
6. I love it when I attack you and you exclaim, "Eh hey!" and you try to escape. You look like a cute malay kampung boy in the process.
5. I love watching you play the guitar because you look so intense and I love the look of concentration on your face. And at that moment I feel like you're the sexiest beast alive.
4. I love how you try your best to be good at everything you do, your strife and your high expectations of yourself, including being the best boyfriend you can be.
3. I love how you're so old already but you still play and have fun with me like a kid. In other words, you are super act cute and act young. :D
2. You are such a caring, considerate, responsible, and respectful person.
1. You ground me and bring me back to earth sometimes when needed (and when I am receptive) and you make lots of smart decisions for us and everybody. :)

I love you to the cores of the earth Mr Yaye Kaye.

Friday.

7 Ways Why I Love You.

2009-04-13T22:36:00.002+08:00

7. I love you because you bring youthful energy and recklessness to my life.

6. I love you because you are truly an impish pixie that I want to tame and hold tight every night.

5. I love you for the sexy baby poo that you are. New one cos Gmail has eaten up my words.

4. I love you because your smile and smell reminds me of what being in love is.

3. I love you because you love music the way I do.

2. I love you because I love watching you sleep, esp as your lips tremble and twitch just as you drift away into slumber.

1. I love you because you will meet and go along with me wherever I want to go in life.

Together, you and me.

I love you.

*I am a sleepy poo, no doubt, but both in slumber and in waking hours, I know I love you very very much.

Happy 7th monthsary!

Don't be angry with me for long, ok?

xoxo.

I NEED TO FUCK!

2009-03-29T16:16:00.003+08:00

2 more days baby! 2 more days!!!!!! And the first thing we shall do is have hot crazy sex! =D

If you are still interested in me that is... =X

It was great hanging out with the Ds last night, and we just spent the whole night talking and talking and talking about life. It was cool. I felt like a normal human being again. :) Don't ask about what we talked about. Because whatever we talk about, will always stay within our circle. :)

So have you heard Anemal Voodoo's stuff? Nick concurred that I sing better in Chinese. :'( That makes me sad because I'm supposed to be better in English in terms of command of language.

I hope you had a good gig last night. Errol is back already and I am updating this entry with his laptop. We asked him if he would do it again, and he said "Yes"! So I guess all the headache and trouble in the beginning was worth it huh! I also got your fried pedals safe and sound and they are now nestling in a corner in our room.

I am still not feeling well and I think it's because I have been smoking too much over the past week. Smoke smoke smoke... Sigh... If you were around, I probably wouldn't smoke as much. :(

Tomorrow I shall go settle my bag, settle auto roaming. Tuesday late afternoon I have an interview with Playeur magazine to be a party promoter. This is for pocket money when I start school. Cuz the money each weekend is pretty good I guess. :D So I won't have to worry about money when I start school. And then after that I possibly have jamming with Indus. And I will go home and pack, and I will see you the next morning. :)

Love you baby!! SEE YOU IN 2 DAYS TIME!!

These Are Flowers For You.

2009-03-28T12:32:00.002+08:00

My Precious.

2009-03-28T12:23:00.005+08:00

Today, as you know, I woke up majorly late, but spent 5 hours with Leo and his cousin and her husband here.

They took us around to Harvard Square, where the university buildings are, and we walked around and looked at the buildings and all those touristy things.

We had clam chowder here (good stuff!) and other stuff for meals. Leo is having lobster with them tomorrow, but I think I'll skip that cos I want to do other things.

Seeing Leo's cousin (who is Singaporean) and her husband (who is American), made me think of us and miss you more. I know what I want in life, and I know I want you to be mine always. I want to grow old with you.

Miss you lots, 5 days more to go! :p

Me.

Untitled.

2009-03-26T17:16:00.002+08:00

Sometimes it gets scary but I'll be more confident of things and not worry so much.

Just wanted to say that.

I love you more than ever, and look forward to our reunion in 6 days time, baby.

Muacks!

Houston, Houston.

2009-03-26T17:00:00.004+08:00

I love that pic of you in the ponytail, my new fave hairstyle for you. :p

Anyways you can see pics of our show too, in this post, just for you!

Indus Gendi's Gig

2009-03-25T23:05:00.002+08:00

Hey baby, here's a photo of our performance on 21st March. You've probably already seen the pictures on facebook. But just in case you haven't, since you're so busy, here's one picture. I'm wearing the tee you bought for me! :) I even tied my hair in 2 ponytails to match the girl on the t-shirt. HEhe...

Wish I could watch your shows in America. :(

Neways, we've gotten the acoustic gig at Esplanade on 5th to 6th May for sure! Yay!! The response for our show was awesome. We received lots of cheers, and after the show, some people were saying we should release an EP cuz the stuff are good. :D Baby I felt so accomplished then. This means so much more to me than some high-paying job. REally..

Esther's Follies - See Pic!

2009-03-24T23:51:00.004+08:00

Just wanted to share this with you - there's a pic of a venue with your name on in in Austin!

Hehe!

Other pics are on Leonard's FB and our Myspace.

I Want You Back Too.

2009-03-24T23:31:00.002+08:00

Hey baby, I missed being online yesterday. When we came back, I needed to rest a bit. Wanted to sleep for just 30mins, set my alarms and got Leonard to wake me up, so that I can be online and talk to you, but somehow I only woke up just. And it's 11.30am the next day here now in Boston. We are exactly 12 hours behind here.

It's been freezing cold here, last night I think it easily dipped to like -2 or -3 degrees C with wind chill. I did bring my think jackets, but ended up buying gloves and all that cos I didn't bring them.

The flights out were killer - We had to drive about an hour to Houston airport, lug all our gear and luggage in, then flew 3 hours to Charlotte, North Carolina before waiting to connect to Boston, which took us another 2 hours. Slept on the planes, but still felt drained for the traveling. I'm glad that we're going to be stuck in one city for a bit now.

I miss you badly too. I want to see you soon. I miss kissing you and holding you tight and making love to you.

But I worry about how you're feeling now, like from the last post and all... But there really should be any case for me to worry, right?

Love always, you take care baby.

Hugs from the cold,

Thursday.

I Want You Back

2009-03-24T00:12:00.002+08:00

I feel so numb. I feel like ever since Saturday night, all my emotions and energy have been drained. It was such a mindblowing experience. I don't think I'm the same person as before. I feel like I have grown up 10 years. I feel too zen, which is something you know I never was.

I feel all too clear-headed, and too down-to-earth. Perhaps when we reunite, I might become the me you know again? Who knows...

I Miss You Lots. <3

2009-03-23T14:58:00.002+08:00

When you read this, I will soon be asleep.

I miss your touch, your smile, your voice, your smell, everything about you.

I know that you have had a cathartic moment, but I hope that with this new clarity that you have, you still see me in the picture to be the person to love you.

It's been less than a week since I've been away, and I know it feels like a thousand years. Can't wait to meet you at HK airport soon.

Love you lots, always. Never been insecure about that.

Thursday.

xoxoxo.

Hey

2009-03-22T23:20:00.001+08:00

Felt like I haven't properly heard from you for a long time. Oh wells... Hope you're alright. Sad that you didn't update our blog... =( but i guess you were busy...

12 Days To Reunion

2009-03-21T04:58:00.002+08:00

Cinematic Orchestra was amazing... And N.E.R.D. was even more amazing!!!!!!!! Gosh!!!! I think N.E.R.D. was the best concert I've been to for 08 and 09!!!!! Seriously!! Pharrell Williams is srsly a born performer. He was born to do this man. Like totally totally totally!!!! And they were so tight! It's so cool to watch an authentic for-real hip hop band, rather than the shit ass posers we see on Live n Loaded.

TCO was awesome too! Though at some points during the improvisation / shredding parts, I felt quite bored. But the singer was so amazing man. Damn powerful yet gentle voice. Very good control. Wish I could have such good voice control like her.

I really enjoyed TCO. But to be honest, N.E.R.D. made me forget TCO. N.E.R.D. was really awesome amazing, took my breath away. Great music + Great performance = POWER!!!!!

HAve a good show baby. :) you guys also POWER!!

Keep Yer Chin Up!

2009-03-20T19:41:00.003+08:00

Don't be sad or depressed ok baby?

This is just a short message to let you know that I'm thinking of you.

Hope you're enjoying Cinematic Orchestra and check out the Sparkle Myspace for updated pics!

Love ya, will look out for your sms when I get up from bed - which will need to be soon!

Muacks!

xoxo

13 Days To Reunion

2009-03-20T13:51:00.003+08:00

Been feeling very depressed lately and can't focus on anything. Sorry about last night when I was falling asleep while talking to you. I remembered clearly one part when you said, "You are falling asleep! And this is a long-distance call!" But I was just too tired and groggy to respond intelligently. I don't even recall the phone ringing and me picking the phone up. All I remembered was that line. Sigh I'm sorry...

This morning I decided to go to the office late because I had no mood to work. I reached the office at 11.30am, and found out that I did not bring my keys again. Second time it happened. I felt so frustrated at myself, so annoyed. I decided to just go home and take the keys, and not come back. So right now I am in Nick's studio using his Mac. Senn is okay with me taking the day off. So all is cool. Americans are really so laidback. :D Love it.

I fought with my bro this morning also. And I just felt like giving up. I feel like I don't wanna care anymore. If my bro needs something from me, be it money, or whatever, I give it to him without complaining. But if I just wanted to use the computer for an hour or so, it's as if I am asking the world from him. And it's like he lives in an alternate reality where he thinks he is king, and that everything he does or says is absolutely correct, and that everyone else is inferior to him.

This fact struck me when he was washing his shoes in the toilet, and I went into the toilet telling him that I needed to bathe so that I can go to work, and he refused to budge, saying that I can't always have my way. And then he said "Do you even wash your own shoes?" And at that moment it just struck me that he isn't even aware of what's going on around him. In my mind, I was like "Dude do you even realize that I don't stay with you guys anymore? I only come back once a week. I support myself and don't take cash from mum anymore. Obviously I am staying on my own now and coping with things by myself right??" It's like he is very proud of the fact that he washes his own shoes (and many other things), and he believes that nobody else does that except himself. And that makes him king.

I mean the shoes story is just an example.

I feel tired of trying. I feel tired of being the only one who bothers. I feel tired of clapping only my hand on a flat wall.

I think I need to get a grip on my life and figure out what to do next, what rational / irrational thing to do next, and find a solution to make me less depressed.

P.S. His MSN nick right now is "The self-righteous. You'll always fall the hardest."
God if only he could see how self-righteous he himself is, so proud of what he believes in, so bloody opinionated and myopic he is.

I'm Still Running On Singapore Time.

2009-03-20T00:57:00.003+08:00

My body clock is still out of whack. It's very hard for me to get good rest here. I've not slept properly since before we left, so it has been a few days. I hope I get better adjusted with the timing soon.

Anyways called earlier but you were falling asleep, so not sure if you will actually remember it.

It's about 12pm here now and I just work up. Obviously everyone is running late.

Lesley and Errol are on the way to pick us up now.

I drove our van yesterday and it was a learning experience as it's my first time driving on the left-hand drive American style. Plus the van is huge - a 12-seater, I need to get you a pic of it the next time.

Anyways the above is a picture of one of Austin's main streets at night.... It gets really buzzing past 10pm I think. I too the shot around maybe 9 last night?

Hope you are fine, dont worry too much about me. Will be in touch again soon.

Love you lots and miss you much.

Hugs and bugs,

Thursday.

I'm Super Happy to Read Your Update :)

2009-03-18T23:18:00.002+08:00

I decided to go back to Yishun after all. I decided I can't conquer my fear of the dark and my imagination and I will always need someone with me in the dark. This was especially emphasized when Nick shared with me his stories about magic and stuff. Even though he did not mention them in a ghostly or "supernatural" way, but rather a very logical and rational way, I still felt considerably spooked, and would rather have somebody by my side should I experience such direct occurences. Plus for Portsdown, it's pretty much a "there's-no-place-i-can-run-to" kind of place, if anything should happen. *touch wood*

When I go back to Portsdown on other days to pack up the room and stuff, I'm gonna get someone to go over with me. Perhaps Nic or something.

I really enjoy talking to Nick. I think we share the same frequencies on a lot of things. Sometimes he also feels the same way as I do, in the sense that he does not dare to share his theories with anyone else because people will laugh at him and just dismiss them as nonsense. Which is exactly the same as how I feel. Everytime I try to share with other people about what I think of fate, and possibilities, and yadda yadda, they just laugh at me. So it's great that Nick and I are on the same page regarding such matters, so we can talk about them knowing that nobody is dismissing the ideas.

Why do you say that Twilight reminded you of me baby? I am surprised that you actually liked it! Considering you being so atas and all, often dissing movies that you deem "unworthy" to watch, or too brainless, and only watching those arty movies that people watch to feel intelligent.

I want YOU to be safe. Cuz like I said, you are a foreigner in a foreign land with foreign practises. It's more vital to watch out for your safety there as you are not used to the way things are there. I promise you I will be safe. Because right now, I feel that my life is not just mine, but also yours. I hope you feel the same way too.

I hope you don't get too stressed fussing over all those things. Don't waste your trip there by being stressed and worrying too much about nothing okay? I want you to also enjoy your experience so that you can have good memories of SXSW.

P.S. I tried changing HK money today but the stupid money-changer said that minimum SGD i can change is $200 (i tried changing $150). =/ ccb.

Lots and lots and lots of love,
Friday.

10,000 Miles Away From You.

2009-03-18T21:57:00.003+08:00

Baby,

First off - I just want you to know that I love love love you very much! So don't worry ok?!

I've read all the posts and it's wonderful that you're telling me all these stuff - I'll try to update as much as I can.

It's been super tiring and I'm glad that we are here safe! 30 hours of flying - CRAZY!

On the planes, I caught lotsa movies - Finally saw 'Twilight' and guess what - I like it! When I watch it, I am somehow reminded of you!

We have many things to do later today like settle our gear, book hotels for the next legs, go through our accounts and so on... The budgets are becoming very scary.

I really want you to be safe, so please send me SMS and email updates okay?

Miss hugging you to sleep.

Ok I am going to bed now, will catch you again soon. Its now 9am here and we have a full day soon!

Love you, kisses always!

xoxoxo

PS. Anyways on the top is a pic from 10,000 miles away, before we landed in LA.

Muacks!

Someone Posted This on FB

2009-03-18T19:12:00.001+08:00

1. It's important to have a man, who helps at home, who cooks from time to time, cleans up and has a job.

2. It's important to have a man, who can make you laugh.

3. It's important to have a man, who you can trust and who doesn't lie to you.

4. It's important to have a man, who is good in bed and who likes to be with you.

5. It's very, very important that these four men do not know each other.

A lot of the people that commented said that the 5th point was included because it is so rare that guys with all 4 points exist. I am so proud and happy to say that you have all the 4 points. I'm the luckiest girl in the world. :)

Friday.

16 days to reunion

2009-03-18T11:48:00.000+08:00

How come everybody gets to go online except you!! I see Errol and Adek updating their facebook statuses. But no sign of email or blog entry from you. :( sigh...

I'm so scared of you not loving me as much as I think you love me.

Around 5 more hours until you contact me

2009-03-17T22:37:00.002+08:00

I just came back from watching the world gig with Mel and James. The musicians that were playing were namely Karen Nunis Blackstone from Malaysia, and Omega from US of A. And goodness gracious me!! Omega was a total bomb!!! Amazing awesome shit. Mel and I were completely blown away by the awesomeness. The whole band was so damn tight with great sessionists. Most important of all, Omega's voice was just superbly captivating and strong. Her music is in Lugandian, I couldn't understand a single word of it, yet somehow I felt that I could understand her story.

Yes that's how good she is. I wanted to get her album, but decided that I should save up for HK. I'm gonna change SGD 100 asap to HK dollars so that I definitely won't spend that amount in SG.

KAren Nunis Blackstone was alright. Initially Mel and I felt that she had an awesome voice, somewhat like a very fierce and sultry Alanis Morisette. But she just had to play next to Omega, who totally trashed her. So it's not that Blackstone is bad, it's just that Omega is too good. Perhaps it's cuz Omega is African American, so she probably can trash pretty much everyone else NOT African American in terms of music. Also, Blackstone would have been a lot better if not for the obvious mistakes that the guitarist was prone to making, and some tension on stage between Blackstone and the guitarist when he could not seem to get the key for one of the songs right.

After watching them play, I feel very obligated to practise my singing everyday. Cuz the vocals at the Concourse is gonna be so super obvious, any small little error would be heard among even the musically uninclined.

Okay you're so totally gonna contact me (via call, sms, email) by 6am. Any failure to contact me by said time will result in me calling you in an angry mood! Be safe my love. :)

17 Days to Reunion

2009-03-17T17:24:00.003+08:00

I asked Nick Chan whether he wanted to go HK with me. He was almost going to agree until he remembered that he had last episode of LnL to work on the 4th. =( Such a sea of coincidences. Zizi, Razi's ex, invited me to her wedding which is also on the 4th! She is so nice to invite me even though she didn't really know me, except that I'm your girlfriend, and that I am Dee Dee and Dewi's friend.

So the Ds and I are gonna have the sleepover at Portsdown on the 28th (Sat) and 29th (Sun), cuz Dewi is off on the 29th. Dee Dee says that it's Earth Hour on the 28th from 8.30pm - 9.30pm. Which means we gotta switch off all electricity. I had a lousy suggestion of playing boardgames. But I guess nobody would be too enthusiastic about that. Especially in weak candlelight.

I am going to meet Mel at City Hall MRT later at 6pm to have dinner and watch the world gig together. We are actually going to watch Omega, and African American singer, from USA, and another Malaysian singer who sings World Music. I think it might be a cool musical experience. I can't wait for us to come back on the 5th, and perhaps we could finally start jamming together properly as Thursdays and Fridays. :)

I miss you dearly. I miss being able to SMS and call you as and when I can.

Fate says we meet at the top of the hill...

2009-03-01T16:05:00.002+08:00

Miss You!

2009-02-18T11:29:00.000+08:00

Love you lots baby! Kisses!

I'm Here I'm Here

2009-02-02T20:51:00.001+08:00

You're the most capable and macho and hamsum man I've ever met and I hope we'll be together for as long as we can because I think we are perfect for each other. I love you!

You Don't Love This Blog Anymore.

2009-01-29T17:44:00.001+08:00

Where art thou Mrs. Boss?

You Snooze, You Lose.

2009-01-20T00:20:00.002+08:00

Sleepy poo. That's you!

Your phone alarm has gone off twice now... And I tried waking you up 3 times to no avail. Think I will let you sleep for now, and wake you up later. I promise to help with your proposal okies?

I know that we will laugh, we will cry and we will grumble. And through all of that, I want to be the man by your side, doing those things with you.

We are both not perfect, but really, I think we can be perfect for each other.

And I'll try and wrestle better with you next time. But you know you'll lose. Hehe

Love ya always,

Achmed.

='C

2009-01-12T07:50:00.003+08:00

Sorry for making you worry unnecessarily last night. I dunno why I just broke down also. Actually when you told me that we wouldn't be watching Poltergeist anymore because of your work, for some reason, my lips started quivering already. And it was out of my control. I felt like a kid being denied candy, or a toy. It was quite silly.

I felt kinda embarrassed and did not want you to see, so I quickly turned away, closed Errol's laptop, and went to lie on the bed. And then you came to my side and kept asking, "Are you okay? Are you okay?" And a part of me in my brain I was like, "Yes yes go away..." But the other part was saying, "Please stay by my side and hug me and give me more attention and make me feel better."

But you had work to do and I didn't want to worry you for nothing by letting you see any signs of teary eyes, or letting you know that I wanted you around. So I just buried my face in the pillow and did not respond to you so that you would just go away and continue with your work.

Then you left the room to smoke and I thought, "okay I can now cry in peace." So I just cried and cried because of extreme disapppointment and extreme boredom and an extreme feeling of uselessness and I thought about all the negative things around me and started to cry even harder. And I guess it got a bit too loud and you heard from outside and came in to console me.

And then I felt guilty for crying too loudly and causing you to waste about half an hour consoling me and soothing me, therefore not being able to continue with your work.

K so anyway, sorry.. =( Hope you managed to email TEC the stuff, and that you won't be too tired at work today....

Friday

You will not be a writing widow for much longer.

2009-01-11T21:23:00.002+08:00

I know that this weekend I have been completely busy and not have had the time to properly spend with you.... Don't be sad too much...

You will have me the freelance writer back soon.

But you know that you will have me the brown man always.

Thursday

xoxo

Smile and you shall see.

2009-01-09T14:51:00.003+08:00

nice teeth and lips. muacks!

xoxo

Abuse And Then Some.

2009-01-04T13:02:00.002+08:00

Hallo you!

I have spent some time away on the island of Estherix meditating and learning how to write using this newfangled technology we call the laptop and Internet. And because I have had to do this under a relative amount of abuse from Mrs Boss, it took me a while..

Anyways I am back but still suffering under the harsh regime of Mrs Boss. I am not allowed to sleep, and even as I write, suffered physical abuse and torture to my limbs. I wonder if there will be a saviour for me, but the tarot cards only revealed a figure brandishing 9 swords. Go figure.

I will come back here to write again soon. In the meantime, be well my love.

Achmed

xoxo

We Haven't Blogged Here In A Really Long Time.

2008-12-27T09:25:00.003+08:00

Izzit cuz you didn't go to school my Achmad?? Why????

Can't wait for Thursfriday!! =) Nobody can ever replace your standing in my heart.

I Will Always Always Be There For You

2008-12-17T14:54:00.004+08:00

And I really mean it from the bottom of my heart.

Always as in, if I am in the middle of eating the best cheese naan in the world, and you need me to be there for you, I will take the cheese naan with me and fly over to wherever you are, instead of enjoying the luxury of eating it slowly at the coffee shop.

Always as in, if I am at work and by right there is no way I can leave the office. But if you call me and tell me you need me, I'll leave the office just like that and go over to wherever you are, even if it means costing me my job.

Always as in, if I had to give up my Juno G and my piano, because you are somewhere far away, and need me to literally fly over, therefore requiring me to sell off these treasured items of mine, I would, so as to get the money to fly over. Because you are my greatest treasure of all.

Friday.

Mirror mirror on the wall, you are the fairest one of them all.

2008-12-04T17:37:00.001+08:00

Baby

Despite whatever happens tonight, you will be the biggest winner in my heart.

Love everything about you.

xoxo

Thursday.

We will not let zombies and murderers take us!

2008-11-29T15:56:00.002+08:00

With all the chaos happening around us in this world right now, I just want to make sure that I can be around to take care of you, and you of me.

Together we will make it better for us, and if we can for others too.

And I promise, if there are zombies around, we'll fight them to the death, and I will never let them take you.

Love you madly.

MUACKS!

Macho Moto!

2008-11-28T12:24:00.001+08:00

Since somebody easily got a glimmering GOLD for his physical fitness test, he shall no longer be known as fatty bom bom, but Macho Moto.....

A Documentation of Our 2nd Monthsary!

2008-11-22T21:02:00.010+08:00

Itinerary for the day!! Totally agreeable with me! =P

Act artistic shot but terrible failure due to poor camera resolution!

My cranberry cocktail and your Hoegarden beer! But drinks at Klee are still ace!

U and Me Happy Happy. (We should write a song with this title. XD)

Handsome intellectual boy studying the drinks menu at wild oats!

Secretly wishing she can receive flowers from the man she loves one fine day. dum dee dum.

Flowers from the lady to the man. But too bad he didn't appreciate them as much as she'd have liked him to! Pfffttt...

Sexy man Amran Khamis! But Miss Esther Low Hui Xian is still sexayer!!

Sexy lady Esther Low Hui Xian!

ARGH!!

2008-11-19T14:45:00.001+08:00

Omg I'm missing you so damn badly. I think I'm falling deeper in love with you every day. I really love you so damn much. It's quite insane. Yes.

It was a huge surprise.

2008-11-13T14:36:00.003+08:00

Thank you for being so wonderful.

I want us to be the beautiful love story people dream about.

Love you madly.

Thursday.

Dreaming

2008-11-12T10:23:00.000+08:00

I just want to let you know that, during many moments every single day, I think of you. And I will definitely smile to myself like a silly poo.

Thank you for giving me so many good memories so far, and no bad memories at all. =)

Voodoo Voodoo Voodoo Two. Hello Hello Hello YOU!

2008-11-11T11:46:00.003+08:00

I miss you. And yes, of course I still love you. Lots in fact. :D

Had some time to relax after a meeting, so looked through our photos on FB. The ones from Botanical Gardens are nice, but I hate the ape-like walk hehe!

I'm really looking forward to our Bangkok holiday together - I think we will have a wonderful time baby.

Chat again soon, hugs and bugs.

Thursday.

I'm Sorry

2008-11-10T13:19:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry I haven't blogged here for so long. =(

I hope you still love me.

Holiday, Holiday!

2008-11-07T11:37:00.003+08:00

Baby, I am checking on the options:

if we want to redeem my Krisflyer, for Hanoi only 1 ticket is redeemable, but this will be instantly confirmed! to book the other ticket, it will be $692 including taxes. so if we split the flights, it will be $346 each.

for other flights to Hanoi, see here (details from Zuji.com.sg):

Vietnam Airlines - $438.76 per person (but the schedule sucks, flights leaves late on the outbound and early on the inbound)

All other flights on Zuji are more expensive per person

Hong Kong

Cathay Pacific to HKG is around $450 per person

Thai is cheaper at around $350 but with 1 stop in Bangkok and traveling 10 hours doesn't make sense, esp since HKG is just 3.5 hours away

Jetstar Asia (budget airline) is not cheap at $508!

Siem Reap (Cambodia)

Jetstar flies on the 14th Sunday and comes back 16th if you want to see Angkor Wat? $405 per person

Right now, Hanoi seems a good option. I would like Hong Kong too, if we can find cheaper flights. But on the whole, i think Hanoi would be slightly cheaper to go to than Hong Kong for December. What do you think?

Thursday.

Wow.

2008-11-05T11:33:00.000+08:00

I’m really happy that both your brother and mum like me enough, to at least not object our going out together. This is really, really amazing. It’s a strange and foreign feeling, but most welcomed. Thank you!

Miss you loads.

xoxo

YOU ARE FORGIVEN!

2008-11-03T02:17:00.002+08:00

And you will help me improve musically too. And after jamming, we will wrestle and fight on the bed and "GOLLY GEE WHIZ WHEEE!!" And then we will laugh ourselves silly and get silly inspiration for our music and then we will jam again. And then after that we will make love, and take "half an hr" naps. And then we'll take a shower together and you can rub my feet with the pumice stone and I can give you a back rub after that!

GOLLY GEE WHIZ WHEEEE!!

Fridays.

A New Scale of Things

2008-11-03T01:57:00.002+08:00

Thank you for bringing more music into my life.

Your breath, your voice, your love for me, your musical ability (you're great, trust me!) are all vibrant notes that I now cannot live without.

For all the wrongness over the weekend, I'm sorry. I was a silly poo.

I look forward to all the adventures that we will share together, from our fun and games, to all the serious things, and everything in between.

And I hope that the alien in your stomach goes away soon, and that the only voodoo we will have in our lives will be the spell we have over each other.

HUGGIES! xoxo

Damn You Friendster!

2008-10-31T11:53:00.003+08:00

Sigh I have been having problems with Friendster the whole day! Can't message you at all!

Hope things are okay for you in the office....

Thank god it's Friday! Can't wait for the weekend with you.

GOLLY GEE WHIZ! WEE!!!

Hello!!

2008-10-28T13:42:00.003+08:00

I also can't believe how much I have fallen in love with you in such a short time. I can't believe how smooth our relationship is. We hardly fight and stuff. We're so happy together. In fact we don't even fight. We just get grumpy sometimes. And that's perfectly normal.

And hello!! I actually changed my perspective on conversion and stuff. Because of you! do you know how earth shattering that is for me???

6:01am

2008-10-28T06:01:00.000+08:00

I can't believe how much I have fallen in love with you.

Close to You.

2008-10-27T23:25:00.003+08:00

I'm typing this as you are lying in my bed, with your feet propped up on me.

You're twitching again... A sign that you are drifting off to sleep.

I know that I am not perfect, but I also know that I want to be everything to you. And so I will always try my best. Not just now, but always. It may not always be as expected, but I will at least try.

This is a journey we will take together.

I love you to the core of my heart, and I truly absolutely mean it.

xoxo.

Thursday.

I Will Cushion Your Fall

2008-10-27T16:53:00.000+08:00

My brain is dead and I can't think of what to type right now. But yeah. k bye.

This Might Sound Cheesy But Hell I Mean It

2008-10-24T18:19:00.002+08:00

Even if the whole world turns its back on you, I will still be here/there/whereever.

Everytime I Breathe

2008-10-24T11:45:00.002+08:00

i love everything about your smell, everytime.

*deep breath* smile*

Thursday

=)

2008-10-22T09:45:00.001+08:00

"anyways.... what i love most about you? that's actually a really tough one, simply because there are many things i love you for: The maturity that belies your age and at the same time, the spontaneity that comes with being your age - which encompasses your ability to question what should be right for yourself and not follow blindly; your ability to have a leap of faith and embark on an adventure with me even though you know not where it leads (yet); your openness to loving me as a person, although I am brown, from a different generation, alien world and social circle; etc etc

but if i were really really pressed to only give one answer, what i probably love most is our fit for each other. so far we have fitted like a well-worn leather glove that is full of memory: nice and comfortable, immediately reassuring, a perfect fit, able to be relied on, and smells like a smile.

i love you baby." - Thursday

Friday

A Note

2008-10-22T07:31:00.002+08:00

Sometimes we all feel too much, but when we do, it always helps to have the ones you love around you. Je t'aime ma cherie.

Thursday.

I Think I Know

2008-10-21T12:39:00.001+08:00

You smell like a worldly yet laidback kampung boy.

Tuesday Morning

2008-10-21T00:58:00.000+08:00

my room's all dark and i've got devendra banhart on softly. i wish you were here.

wanted to go FB and upload photos from my phone of the wedding part at arts house, but got distracted chatting with my friend frm melbourne, who msged me inside FB.

anyways came here to leave you a msg, so that you can see it tomorrow.

miss you loads, i really wish i had you in my arms to hold, squeeze and smell right now. i look forward to doing that again baby.

life has a strange way of turning out, and i'm happy that you're now my partner for the ride. love you madly, xoxo.

Thursday.

First Post

2008-10-20T11:56:00.000+08:00

Ello Jello baby!

This is our own blog! And we can blog all kinds of things inside here! Our feelings, the things we did, our problems, our happiness. Whatever! I love you!

Friday.